brezsny-on-the-blog

CAPRICORN (Dec. 22-Jan. 19): "The greatest thing a human soul ever does in this world is to see something," wrote art critic John Ruskin. "To see clearly is poetry, prophecy, and religion, all in one." Your assignment in the coming week, Capricorn, is to make Ruskin's idea your method. In other words, lay aside everything you think you know, suspend your reflex to impose your beliefs on every situation you encounter, and behold the world exactly as it is. If you do it right, you'll experience pleasure beyond measure. More than that, you'll change everything you see into a more beautiful version of itself.

well, i'm really gonna have to think about this one. for a minute i thought mr. brezsny was talking about how paranoid i've been lately. but i think that's just the stress of the move, and the "hurry up and wait" that we're having to do. i don't do long anticipation well. i used to have seizures as a kid because of that very thing, and i end up getting really stressed out and chemical. but i've just upped my dose of tinctures and i'm (starting to get) good.

no, i think mr. brezsny is talking about something else here, and i'm trying to figure it out. or--HA! that just occurred to me. i'm always looking for the hidden and the deeper, the skewed and the dark. take things as they are, dee, he's saying. no more being suspicious of everything, trying to find people's ulterior motives, wondering when the other shoe's going to drop.

i have trust issues. of course, for those of you who've been reading the blog --especially since '02-- saying i have trust issues is kinda like saying that the sky is blue.

so maybe it's time to start practicing this whole thing called taking things as they are. maybe good really does come around. maybe...