i was talking with *t* about the whole breakup with *sy* thing. we got to talking about how dating can really seem to suck when you're discouraged like i am. i'm really trying to keep myself positive and upbeat. i've changed my manner and appearance to something a little more relaxed and approachable. i've spent $150 in the last week on singles websites like eHarmony, etc. i've bought books to help me change my mentality, get me into a better, more realistic frame of mind and some perspective. i'm not yet ready to go out there --alone-- to places where real people meet real people. y'know, places like the local watering hole, dog park, book stores. not yet ready for that because...well...people might not believe it, but i'm shy as hell. i don't know how to break the ice, approach people, or be outgoing when i'm not surrounded by people i've known for years. around new people, i'd much rather sit against the wall and watch. so it's hard for me to go "out there," and people who know me just don't seem to understand that.
so as i sit here and struggle with this state of singleness that i really don't enjoy, i thought i'd put a list up here of the upside to the single life. things i enjoy about being alone...
1.) i can sleep in and not feel guilty
2.) i don't have someone in bed keeping me awake (i'm the lightest sleeper in the universe)
3.) there's no one to look at the dirty dishes in the sink and wonder if i'm a slob
4.) being single is less expensive -- dinner and a movie is cheap for one!
5.) running around in my flannel jammy pants & pink fuzzy socks is damn sexy
6.) no comments to endure when i go without a bra
7.) farting with impunity
8.) don't have to drive anywhere if i don't want to, & gas is expensive even for the Funkmobile
9.) no guilt over how good i am at Dead or Alive (xbox 360)
10.) more leftovers for me
of course, nothing beats someone who loves me, treats me gently, showers me with affection, and holds me while i sleep, but hey. i'm being positive!